My Last 2 Working Experiences With " Bule " Versus My Arrogance

I came back to my lovely home country in 2010, April last year. For moments in 6 months, I didn't have any work, only helping my friends who has thy own companies, helping them manage the companies thy have and make it neat all management papers including the SOP for the company. Most of my friends have restaurants or small resort in some places, wedding planner or event organizer. I dislike work for my friends, I just help them only in aim to stimulate my brain and adopt all my experiences I have to share with them and bring new fresh air to the concepts they have, to moderate the things in 'Cool' language, I think.

Then, in October I met via cyber at first, he is an expat, then we met and we had lunch together and for good reason he hired me as his house keeper in grade A becoz i have big salary more than secretary( LOL - I called myself like this because less work papers, most of  times clean up his house since nothing to do for work, he does the work anyway, I am just laughing and finishing his coffee because he has best coffee from starbucks everyday ), I have short hours work, sometimes I become a security guard too becoz sometimes there were girls downstairs his condo look for him that the girls wanted him so bad, I should told girls, he wasn't in the place at moment or sometimes when the girl was annoyong, i told her I was his gf so stay away dude !!!  He is so awesome he let me do as I wish in my works even about time-in for working hours: I come at 10 am, I came home at 3 pm most of times. 2 days officially for my day-off but sometimes he just let me not to work if I have work pasrt time outside and still he gave me full salary!!. Most of times, I just watching CNN news because he has flat TV and TV station subscribe so I can watch everything in all over the globe, reading books or magazine, or if i was in mood I will cook and ask his money to shop the things I need.  He is a big time man since he is a tv producer who all tv stations within my countries would come and consult their tv programme. He is a good man tho. He is a US man Mr. T , who stay in Kemang.

But more days over, his funny Indonesian gf or what ever came up... She was normal tho but she acted strangely. One time, I found her putting the minyak duyung to her hand, What the hell is that !!! I really dislike the habit of Indo people who likes admiring this funny paranormal activities ( If the movie I would love it, don't you watch this movie guys?, The Paranormal Activities ? - That's highly recommended to watch ) with putting susuk, showering with 7 types of  flowers etc, and this happened at front of my eyes. I got irritated about this since I dislike this things.

Oneday, she stayed there for whole day and I worked, she wasn't even say Hi or regards that I should the 1 who should said it 1st. Then, she acted as like a big boss by putting her legs like a queen not even wanted to move away while I did my work, I need space man !! and watched me with snapped eyes. I dislike the feelings of hatred. And all clear once she got a phone called from her friend that she wanted to have credit card for my boss to make it for her and paid her-bill in near future by creating and building the trust first. She saw and counted my lovely boss as her ATM machine. I got more irritated by hearing this.I showed to my boss about my dislike about her since she has a face who look like a 'devil' who hurts of 1 of my dearest friend in past. I ever hit this girl too before, she squeezed my friend's money and she was sluting around with other man and using drug at the end we caught her, worst she did it in my friend apartment that he rented for her to stay.

Days passed by, and more not nice condition specially in mid of  March, she wanted to stay there.  I respect my boss so much, but I couldn't tell him there is something wrong in her. Because is not part of my bussiness.
He tried to fix my dislike against her. He told me even with a solution that he would let her sleep at nite, and in the morning she should leave his place to make me comfortable of what I do. But It sounds wrong, since she is his gf. Not good I became a barrier, that's what I thought. Once I decided to resigned, I dislike to seeing those funny things at front of my eyes. I can vomit everytime I see her face. It would look funny in me for my image as a tuff girl.

After quitting from my above mentioned boss, again I worked for another expat, an Australian man. A big time man too.Also in Kemang area. I find him once I was shopped in Ranch Market in Kemang. He is a nice guy too and he offred me higher salary than when I was worked with Mr. T. But I only worked for 3 days only. Wednesday, Thursday, Friday at weekend I got 2 days off. On Friday Evening Mr. G my Aussie boss asked me to nite out with him. I rejected due of my reason that it's not good because I am new.

In saturday morning at 7.30 am I got bunch around 20+ sms who said I am a slut, bastard, anjing tra la la from a woman who admit that she is Mr. G 's gf. Whole days in Saturday & Sunday, she called me and keep on sending trash talks sms !!! And she even asked me to meet up and ask for a fight !! Can you imagine that ??? Honestly, while I worked there in those 3 days, I didn't even see any woman around. So what's on earth she said that to me. I am tired of shits women. Mr. G's found this and asked apology for this. And that was true she is his jealous gf. I told him that he not need to apology, what he needs to do is to stay away from a wackoo like her. I tired for fighting with these types of girls, that time I was in full of consciousness. If I'm in bad mood maybe I could come over and hit her as like what I did to my slutty my best friend's gf.

Then, I quit. I not need to fight with wackoo right. Who crazy seeing blue eyes, green eyes, hazel eyes, brown eyes etc... I dont want to die for funny things since those type of women can do anything irrationally. It is not worth. G's really ashamed that he told me I have lots brains to explore with him.  But I am sorry, i couldn't stand with the funny silly things behind it.

we still keep in touch until now personally and meet me with his Aussie gangsta friends. Most of them having same problems with Indo girls. They found out too late after marriage, that the girls are shit in heads. Most of them can be last average 5 years marriage. Then, i analyze thy problems. The root all same thing behind. They found thy dream girls in nite club. I cant judge tho, since not all girls are bad. i told them what I think , it sound weird that girls come to nite club to get a man to pay her drink bills and having sex then pay the girls and the story begin, they were in monkey's love bussiness . It is commons sense happen abroad if that way, but that's for fun. Not for money., right. It is wrong what happen to all bule's or expats guys who get girls and made her for serious ones, most are just faking themselves, even maybe some men get the luck to find the true ones even in bar tho.

Since when, the girls admit tht she should do prostitution because the poverty's reasons? Is this a sad story to gain shympathy or what ?
I worked my ass-off to be stand on my own. Im not afraid being a hard worker in life. and is not a place for me to share my poverty's problem to someone in bar or to anyone that doesn't know me so well.

I need money, but if there was thing could make danger to myself, why I have to stay in it? I face wackoos and better I stay away from problems.

I keep remind myself since then that all in each of us just same, same thing with that bule guys that we could be wrong to seeing them they are 1 of our solution to get our ass out from poverty things ( depends on our own perspective what is poverty ).
I remind myself that they are also just human-being ( the men-red ) that they are struggle to gain the confortable life by moving thy ass off. All each of us have aged and time, when we could have disability coz the force majeure happening ( hopefully not ), we as woman has to get back inside ourselves and take a look deep in it, are we believe in love?

If yes we do believe, make the path then. Putting ourselves as like everybody else's shoes. If we do believe of love itself, we shall be hand in hand until the time is lasts. Oneday once upon a time the man beside us also having difficulties times ( this life isn't always about happy things, there is always also bad times ), that our man from anywhere or what skin thy have or how much money he has etc that having disability, we as woman has to prove it. That are we capable to stand beside him thru' all those even the sickest times? Not run away from things hard, face it then. Don't be lazy ass and stay live in sweet lullaby of what he have this time, growing it also with ourselves capability. Live in simple life. We are not perfect person, we do live in imperfect life, but we and our man is side by side to complete each other, not for moments, but for ever lasting life. Don't be afraid of poor or hard times, create the interest for being useful. Be tuff, there is someone out there are in worst condition than us that thy can't even eat proper nutrition.

If every one wants to be a super model or billionere who will do the shit works? We are not Bill Gates. we are not Oprah, we are not Bruno Mars, we are not Lady Gaga who will get rich even for the next 7 generations thy have.This life is in balance, all everybody needs somebody. We are the needy, the richi riches needs the poor to work, the poor needs money from the richie riches...

No need for being look fancies with fancy things you want to have beyond your own money you have in the pocket. I met some greatest men who are billionairre in the world as like John Inox, Frank Harris, david Cooke etc, thy not seeing my phone brand, my credit cards, my clothes brand name, etc. Thy look my inside of  the heart and thoughts. And thy are also simple in thoughts, thy respect thy inability of someone, never expect for the perfect things in life. And you know what? Thy are those big men that we know, thy have been thru' also the sickest things in life, thy become 'something' as like today is not like turn our hands, but thru' the proccess of life evolution. Thy move thy ass off everytime, hard works indeed. Do not seeing things that thy are success right now without thinking there was a proccess behind it.

This life is not about ourselves, it is about all aspect whereas exist in life, in this beautiful universe. Trust, Enthusiasm, and Work Hard !!! At same time also we need to Play hard !!! Be ourselves, Be glow !!!

It is my arrogance due of my experiences. By working with 2 bules and meeting up my expats friends in here.

Oh yes, I promise to my blog in here that I will make it nicer. This is only for putting my shits at moment. Later i will create nicer.

My Globe

This is a place where we live in. The lovely planet that we live in. It is the the third planet from the sun and the densest and the fifth-largest from the nine planets in solar system. It called Earth.
It is our home for us the human being and all the others creatures that this God of universe created.
Lately I was so concerned how will it become this lovely place that we live in, the place that always sheltered us from the heat and the cold of seasons come down from top.
I can not imagine how it will become, since I am staying now in part of Asia, Jakarta, Indonesia. I couldn't anymore can get out so long in the street since the road so roam and packed with cars and motorcycle. I can not even breath, and the funny thing my hole nose always black thing came out since the dirt of the street's air. How awfully this polutions.

I think of myself and Imagine, is it happening too in other countries? Does anyone feel the same way as I am ? Then, I think that yes for sure, I'm not the only who feel like this. I know and realize also that I am doing shitty things since I am a smoker and I am one of the polution contributor of this lovely planet. My lovely Earth.
I try my best effort now since I try to to quitting my smoking habit since I care of my lovely place. But still in my best effort too, hardly to quit though. In my selfish thoughts I prove myself that I could do subsitute sin with other good thing due of my hardly effort to quit my smoking habit. I start doing gardening once it is one of my interest to do. I smoke but I plant trees. So, the trees that I plant would squeezed my smokes away, and cleaned and pured my sins regarding my self as polution contributor.

Is it a stupid idea guys?

I am happy at least when I see my trees grown up nicely. I notice the small thing come up from the ground. I cry so happy that time when I started plant the lemon tree since baby. It is like something so meaningful to remember. Is like I am the mother of this my first tree that I take care since the seed. Is it the feel of this mother earth too?
Now, it is really really become my part of life to do gardening. I remember in an event, Indonesia having big time problem with chillies' price. It is so expensive in market for chillies. But We & I don't have any problem at all, since at home we plant chillies trees. Even we gave to our neighbourhood.

I remember when I was a kid, my grandpa took me for travelling to hunt in the jungle of our homeland in South Sulawesi, He once asked me, when I grow old what will I become. I told him, Puang ( It's the respect called name for Bugis' Tribe ), I would become a farmer and a famous writer. I told him that I will have a big big land with horses, cows, chicken, etc and behind near of it, there will be ocean as what my grandpa's house located. I love ocean too. i told him that i am in love with the green of jungle we explored, the beauty of animal, specially the deers, even we killed and brought home the deer and made it as dry meat. It is so wonderful food to eat. But now, i will not eat them anymore and killed them. They are too pretty for being extinct.

Now, all my funny talks when kids start come true. I love these simple simple things, seeing green and respect the things. i told my grandpa that I respect the farmers, I love when riding and sitting in the mud. And helped them to plant the padee. I remember those feelings when I plant my first lemon tree. It is so respectable career as a farmer. It is become my ultimate dream now for being a farmer and a famous writer. I start join to authonomy and starting writing my book too. I do make my 2 books before, but the scripts all lost because my last laptop got screw.

I promise to settle myself and buy some land in small village. Runaway from the city crowded.

Let's guys do something, build our interests. It is precious things to do. I love flower arrangement, now it start to grow, I love gardening it become something,  I love writing it become credit title amongst my friends who knew that i am the one who wrote it. Be donatur in wikipedia, it will make us rich in knowledge. Love this life as it is, and be respect to small things. It is so much meant to be. And don't sweat into small things.

Love Life with no boundaries. We will the loved ones in this pretty life ...

Here is the favorite song that can represent my feelings about this post.